Goodbye

1st March 2025

Ending the sad chapters. 

Goodbye

Hi again.

HI, call me. 

So many things happened since we last talked,

And with every event I had wished you were with me,

There is no one else in the world,

That I would want to share my stories with,

I miss your witty remarks,

Your quick thinking,

The banters that we had over trivial things,

Things that I still hold on to,

Though perhaps you’ve changed,

In my mind I stupidly imagine you unchanged,

Still my favourite voice to hear,

The most beautiful laughter, 

My person, my equal, 

My favourite hello,

My most difficult goodbye,

I still pray that one day you’d come back for me,

And save me from this darkness,

This hollow endless nothingness,

I miss you. So. Much. 

Biarlah

Andainya Takdir

Biarlah tiada pesan dan janji,

Biar tiada kau di sisi, 

Aku mengerti

Seterdaya semampuku kucoba menunggu,
Biarlah lompang hatiku ini,

Mengharap pulang kau yang pergi

Kembalilah kepada ku,

Tika punah mimpi mimpimu,
Kembalilah di saat perlu, 

Episod episod duka biar berlalu 

Biarlah waktu ini kau bebas berlari,

Jika tersasar hilang arahmu,
Pulang ke pangkal ku menunggu

Biar sementara ini tiada terisi kekosongan hati,

Diri ku air tenang mengalir tuju muara,

Andainya memang takdir berakhir ku redha

HI

Hi,

It has been a while. 

Nothing has changed. 

Still the same person.

With same feelings.

The same hope. 

Stagnant. 

Time stopped. 

Happy By Proxy

In the sincerest manner possible,

I pray for your happiness,

I hope that you have everything I don’t,

Be happy for me by proxy

Jauh Di Sudut Hati

 

Sayang, 

Ku bawa jauh rinduku,

Kerna aku telah tahu, 

Kau bukan milikku,

Sayang, 

Sesungguhnya bukan mudah,

Menjalani hidup ini, 

Tanpa kau di sisi

Jauh di sudut hati, 

Aku masih bermimpi,

Mimpi yang indah,

Esok kau kembali

Jauh disudut hati, 

Ada waktu-waktunya,

Aku berdoa,

Kau pulang semula

Sayang, 

Biarku mengingatimu, 

Biarku gantung harapan,

Hingga sampai waktu,

Nafas terakhirku

P/S : Rindu tidak tertanggung :'(

Sensory Memories

The body is a living camera,

It continuously takes snapshots of life,

Then at random moments it will send recaps to the brain,

Relive the past for a short while.

The gloomy morning today,

Brought in gusts of chilly wind brushing my skin,

Almost made me reflexively reach out to you,

As I used to before. 

I wish I could control the weather, 

Or at least turn off the recaps function of my body, 

It seems that everything is calling me back to you,

There has not been a day that I don’t miss you :(