Wednesday, 18 January 2012

Rumah Sakit

Rumah sakit (read : Homesick)

I believe this disease hits almost everyone who studies abroad, at least once a year. Being 8000km away is not as hard as it seems, but when the sickness comes, there's no running from it except to Allah for his guidance. These are the times when I recall those times when I saw mama's tired face after working, and aunty's sad face when I lost her car. I feel guilty for not making them happier, for being such burden to them. Even sadder if I recall those happy moments when I was a child, pampered here an there, such high hopes in their eyes. Can I live up to their expectations, what can I do to give back?

Sometimes I feel like I'm wasting too much time studying when I should be working and helping the family physically, and economy-wise. Instead, here I am, strutting around waiting for monthly allowance for paying the rent and food etc etc.

Only Allah knows how great their sacrifices had been to bring up this imperfect boy-man. I will try to make you guys proud. God knows how, but I will try. Love you two.

Jazakallahu khairan kathir
May Allah grant you goodness

Sunday, 15 January 2012

You're not my muse anymore

You break them like they're cheap glasses,
Just like my heart its now in pieces,
with you nothing is in their places

You brought my life such misery,
I thought you were meant for me,
Didn't know you were on with many

I don't wanna wake up to your shadow,
What's left of you is just sorrow,
You darkened my life,
You saddened my dreams
Now we're nothing but broken wings,
We were up so high,
When you chose to let go,
Now I'm back on the ground,
Spared my torn ego,
I won't look back,
You're not my muse anymore

You and me were just fantasies,
I was pain and you were agony,
Destiny's now just memories

Demi cinta

Andai inilah waktunya,
nadi seakan terhenti,
nafas seakan terseksa,
cintamu pudar dihakis masa

disini jiwaku membatu,
mencuba menahan waktu,
mencuba menahan tangis,
saat kau pergi dari diriku

Ku harap kau berbahagia,
walau kisah cintaku tak sempurna,
senyumanmu lebih berharga

pergilah dari hidupku,
tak perlu kau lihat dukaku,
semuanya rela ku tempuh
demi cinta..

disini hatiku membisu,
cuba memegang janjiku,
cuba memegang sumpahku,
takkan pernah melupakanmu