Friday 21 June 2019

Shattered pieces of a broken heart

I’m not a man of many words,
When it comes to hearts and feelings,
But I do mean it when I say I love you,
And that’s all you need to believe in.

There were times when I didn’t know better,
I questioned what were we,
Who was I to you,
And what I meant to you

It wasn’t a good place to be in,
Not knowing where I stood,
Each feeling and each heartache,
Depended on the current mood

When I said I wanted to leave,
It wasn’t because I planned to,
But because I had to,
I was almost insane by staying with you

All I wanted was for you to say
“Don’t leave”
Or “let’s work this out”,
But instead you let me go freely,
And said you had no right to stop me,
But the truth was I permit you every right to stop me.
Always had. Always will.
If there was anyone who had  power over me,
It was you.

But you didn’t stop me when you could.
And that shattered whatever pieces of a broken heart I had left. 

Monday 1 April 2019

Hei kamu

The way you smile,
The way you laugh,
The way you asked for a hug when you were sick,
Brings me back to a place I used to hate


The longing,
The begging from the inside,
The wondering and wandering,
It scares the shit out of me

Hey kamu,
The one who chases sunsets,
Are you the one worthy to be by my side,
To beat the sun in a race nobody ever won before?

Saturday 16 February 2019

We used to

We used to talk about the future,
Now we only talk about breakfast and dinner,
We used to laugh out loud,
Now we only nod

We used to exchange songs,
With lyrics Oh so sweet,
Now the silence grows long,
And in between the silent tweets.


Saturday 9 February 2019

Mengejar Matahari Terbenam

Cuba sembunyi hati,
Cuba sorok perasaan,
Cuba hilangkan diri,
Cuba tenangkan fikiran

Cuba untuk melupakan,
Cuba untuk melukakan,
Cuba untuk melepaskan,
Cuba untuk meluahkan

Cuba lenyapkan laman media,
Cuba hapuskan senyuman manja,
Cuba leburkan memori sentuhan,
Cuba pupuskan segala kenangan

Cuba mengejar matahari terbenam,
Cuba menggapai bintang di langit,
Cuba menangkap titisan hujan,
Cuba memiliki hati seseorang.

Tapi sepertinya gagal.