It will rain

If you ever leave me baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
'Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don't have it anymore.

- It will rain, Bruno Mars

How Much Enoughs Are Actually Enough?

On and on,
Bit by bit,
Pieces by pieces,
You tore my heart away.
What was once broken,
Mended by tears and unforgiving madness,
Barely whole and shattered again.
Again and again,
This poor heart of mine,
Carrying more than it could bear,
Helplessly drowning in despair,
Chained to the bottom of a vast sea,
Stupidly waiting to be rescued by a storm,
That would bring out the evil from the deep,
Out to the surface and by god you will weep

I removed myself from the world on your birthday.
Lets see how long does it take for you to realize im gone.

I know you searched some people on instagram on almost a daily basis but im not one of those people.

I know the kind of body, skin colour, height and characteristics that you lust for,
And i don’t have any of them.

All I’m wishing for is for me to be enough.
No one else.
No need to cover up by saying niat nak buat kawan.
I’m not a child anymore.

The only reason I refused to argue further is because I’m sick of seeing you
making a big fool of yourself by telling lies and more lies.

And you knew I was right. I was right all along.
And you knew the pain I chose to swallow.
And you knew I died on the inside
And you knew everything

But you’re never sorry.

Nothing is worth my pain

Sometimes,
Kita kena pandai jaga hati orang,
Bukan sebab kita salah,
Tapi sebab kita sayang orang tu.

Kadang-kadang kita tahu
Benda yang kita buat tu akan sakitkan hati orang,
Tapi kita buat juga, ambil risiko,
Sebab kita tau orang tu bodoh sikit,
Takkan kemana. Pujuk sikit ok lah.
Kan?

Sometimes,
Kita rasa kita kuat, kita rasa hebat,
Tak perlu dikongkong, kena bebas,
Tapi bila orang dah tawar hati,
Kita gelabah fikir hari-hari yang akan tiba,
Mesti sunyi, mesti kosong,
So kita dengan selfishnya cuba pulihkan keadaan,
Bukan sebab sayang,
Bukan sebab cinta,
Tapi takut sunyi, takut untuk dibenci,

Bak kata Dua Lipa
“Do we need somebody?,
Just to feel like we’re alright?
Is the only reason you’re holding me tonight
Cause we’re scared to be lonely?”

Dalam bercinta,
Bila dah sayang someone,
Nothing,
I repeat,
Nothing is worth that person’s tears.

Kita akan buang segala ego,
Buang segala benci,
Buang rasa terkongkong,
Because we know that person is worth all that, and more.