Tulisan Dari Hati

Serindit turun menumpang dahan,
Kiranya pohon tidak bercondongan,
Cuba tumpang kepala di bahu,
Bahu dialih kepala ke batu

Diminta gerimis di tengah hari,
Tiada setitik sudi ke bumi,
Awan berarak bersama awan,
Tiada hirau tanah rawan

Tidaklah pungguk rindukan bulan,
Cuma terkenang malam berteman,
Sisakan secebis kehormatan,
Beralas lembar-lembar ingatan

Dihiris lada tangan menari,
Halus berseni tiada taranya,
Pedih terhiris jari sendiri,
Sudah terhiris garam ditaburnya

Jika tidak airnya tenang,
Tidak sampan menempuh arus,
Jika mudah diganti yang hilang,
Tidak dinanti parut menghalus

Awan menangis mentari memujuk,
Hilang mendung langit gemilang,
Bila hati ingin dipujuk,
Sendiri menangis teman menghilang

Menggalas beban atas bahu,
Ku sangka mudah jalan lurus,
Rupanya tanah penuh berliku,
Bahuku pedih, kasutku haus

If Only

I'd write you beautiful sonnets,
Only if you'd read them,
I'd sing you a love song,
Only if you'd listen,
I'd take you to the moon,
If only you wouldn't say maybe,
I'd tell you I love you,
If only you'd let me

Take Them Back

Take back what should be mine, and mine only,
Your eyes, your hollow heart and its dying beats,
Why bother giving gifts that you refuse to part with,
Take back the gifts, wrappings, and the ribbons too,
This memory of your hand handing them,
If you can, take them too.

Outgrown.

Trust,
Handle with care,
Once broken,
Its beyond repair.
Twice broken,
Whatever is left of it,
Buried deep in the heart,
From it shall grow,
A tree so big,
Shading its ground,
From any jealousy,
Hurt, and doubts,
The ground hardens,
The heart is now a tomb.

Sempurna

Kaki mengubah pandangan,
Arah utama, keduanya jalan,
Tanpa peta hanya tujuan,
Mengatur langkah tanpa sempadan

Tiada takut tiada gentar,
Cuma berteman rasa debar,
Tangan digenggam hati mekar,
Lengkap dalam samar

Malam berteman bintang seribu,
Bulan senyum malu-malu,
Awan berlari dikejar bayu,
Saksi cinta nan satu

Alunan biola gemersik merdu,
Merpati hinggap ditepi bangku,
Disitu sempurna kau dan aku,
Bermadah cinta diam seribu

Ingin sembunyi dari masa,
Biar disini kita selamanya,
Biar disini kekal berdua,
Nikmati waktu dan usia

Cebiskan sisa-sisa kenangan,
Sambil melangkah mohon taburkan,
Penanda arah jalan,
Kembali ke titik pertemuan.

The Heart That Cares Too Much

If only I could choose not to feel the guilt, worry and jealousy,

If only I could just let you be,

If only life is easy on my,

You would actually be happy

There are things I can't say,

I shouldn't but I have to,

I couldn't but I can't not tell you,

These are things I hate to do

If only love was just a game,

But a game is exactly what love is not,

No loser nor winner to end the plot,

Just the two of us till we rot

Not-okays would eventually become okays

There was a time when I detested medical students not wearing lab coats in practical classes. I detested it so much that I would curse them inside. Days, weeks and months passed by. Being the only guy who wore a lab coat in class became a bit awkward. I first leave my lab coat in my bag. Then later I stopped taking it to classes altogether. Wearing a lab coat in class is now the awkward gesture.

I am now OK with not wearing proper lab coats in class. Which is wrong. Knowing that the wrong is the norm just doesn't justify. I dream of a time when lab coats are relevant. A time when I don't have to feel guilty of doing something right, or making others feel guilty for not being as conventional as I am.

Too many of wrongs would eventually become the norm. It is normal to everyone. To you perhaps. But deep down I curse myself for following your footsteps.